Physically, I battle a yet-to-be-named neuromuscular disorder. I am waiting for genetic testing to be approved by my insurance so I can name (and slay) this beast. Steading myself, I rise to stand, cautious to have a hand, chair, or hand ready to grasp. My legs wobble like a foal learning to walk. It seems as though my legs have forgotten their purpose.
I reach for my marred sword. I cannot raise my arms; the disease has me frozen in a myotonic state. I hold my battered spiritual sword and pray. I’m weary, worn, and beat.
This second battle is spiritual. The Enemy is attacking me. I can’t see him, but I feel the effects. While I don’t know the name of my neuromuscular battle, I do know the name of the one instigating this second battle. His name is Satan, the Enemy, the serpent, and the Accuser.
Each day, I pull my red chair God’s throne, touching knees with the Almighty. I hear these battle songs echoing around me. Donning on “full armor of God” as referenced in Ephesians six, I seek the Lord’s face and strength for both battles.
Here are a list and link of my favorite battle songs:
Victor’s Crown by Darlene Zschech
Rooftops by Jesus Culture
Overcomer by Mandisa
It Is Well by Kristene DiMarco and Bethel music
No Longer Slaves by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser
Break Every Chain by Jesus Culture
I Will Bless the Lord by Byron Cage
Till the Walls Come Down by Martha Munizzi
Holy Spirit by Kim Walker Smith
Even though I continue to battle, it is well with my soul.
~April Dawn White
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