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I Refuse to Sink

Medical signThe task of ordering a medical alert bracelet, is something I’ve been avoiding.  Some days I shake my head in disbelief. A classic case of denial.

I am strong willed, independent, and down right stubborn. Ordering this bracelet is not merely an indicator of a disease state, but an indicator that I am not in control. The latter being the bigger issue.

I am thankful my beloved found the website  If I must wear a bracelet it ought be beautiful. I select a rose gold and teal beaded bracelet and click “ORDER.”  Fighting an unexpected wave of emotion, I ponder what information to engrave on the plate. I’m angry! I don’t want this this bracelet nor this disease.

April Dawn White

Hypokalemic Periodic Paralysis

ICE: Husband’s cell number, ICE: Parent’s home phone

Hours later the kids crash through the door. Rachel produces a gift from a family at school. I am deeply touched by their generosity. I gasp as I open the small box to find a leather wrap bracelet with the words “I REFUSE TO SINK” engraved on the metal plate. An anchor serves as the clasp.

Only God! Only God knew that earlier today I would struggle with what words to have permanently engraved on a medicaMedical Id bracelet CROPPEDl alert bracelet. Only my Jehovah Jireh, which means “The LORD Will Provide,” could orchestrate this specific gift for me on this specific day.

The medical alert bracelet reminds me I am not in control.

However, the leather anchor bracelet reminds me that I REFUSE TO SINK. I refuse to allow the Enemy to control my thoughts and take advantage of  my weakened state.

I refuse to allow this disease state, which paralysis my muscles and freezes my face, to paralyze my spirit and my ability to praise the LORD.

God wove strength and hope into the my DNA long before this disease began to unravel my muscle strength.

My verse for 2015 was this:

“We have this HOPE and an ANCHOR for our soul, FIRM and SECURE.”

(Hebrews 6:19, NIV emphasis mine)

I have periodic paralysis and daily weaknI refuse to sink CROPPEDess. But God is my anchor. He is my hope. He will keep me steady and firm. I refuse to allow this disease to paralyze my spirit and my praise. Furthermore, I refuse to sink  making  “It is well with my soul.”

~April Dawn White


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Strong Shoes Traveled on Stony Paths

Stony path and strong shoes quote Corrie tem BoomWhen the path we’re traveling suddenly changes from smooth black top to dirt and gravel. When everything familiar immediately changes to unknown. When the situation staring back in the mirror is not here to visit, but here to stay. Take comfort God will provide.

I know, because I’m there.

As a survivor of Nazi concentration camps, Corrie ten Boom also knew “If God sends us on stony paths, He provides strong shoes.” God’s provision in desolate times gives my heart reason to hope and “it is well with my soul.”

~April Dawn White

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Greater Future Promises

red chair faviconI have upheld [you] since your birth, and have carried since you were born. Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” (Isaiah 46:3-4, NIV)

My heart is downcast and I’m not feeling it. Unable to find the words to pray, I pull my little red chair up to God’s throne and wait. I sip hazelnut liquid mercy, desperate for a glimmer of hope. “Jesus, help!” is the only prayer I can manage. I open my Bible to Isaiah 46:3-4, a passage of comfort that never grows old.  Every time I read this passage, God speaks. Today, my red chair revelation could have been an English lesson as God focused my attention of the strategic use on past and future tense In this passage God issued three past tense phrases:

  1. I have upheld you.

  2. I have carried you.

  3. I have made you.

Then God offered four future promises:

  1. I will sustain you.

  2. I will carry you.

  3. I will sustain you.

  4. I will rescue you.

God mentions “I will sustain you” twice in verse four. God future promises for my situation is greater than His past tense provision.

Hands-by-Dami-Wurtz-Pixabay His future promises are even greater!

Even though His provisions for me have been good; He upheld me, He carried me, and He made me. God reminds me His future promises are even greater and “It is well with my soul.”

~April Dawn White

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He Will Do It

“The one who calls you is faithful, and He will do it.”
(1 Thessalonians 5:24, NIV)
        Who wrote the majority of the Bible? The answer may surprise you: Moses. God appeared to Moses in a burning bush and commissioned Moses on a new adventure. God appointed Moses to return to Egypt, confront the Pharaoh, and lead God’s people out of slavery. Forty years prior to his encounter with the Almighty, Moses was a tended his Father-in-Laws sheep.  Now he would use that same shepherd staff to lead God’s people to freedom. At the burning bush, Moses stood before the Lord and tried to convince God to pick someone else for the job. He repeatedly argued with God about his new assignment. At one time Moses said “O Lord, I have never been eloquent…I am slow of speech and tongue” (Exodus 4:10, NIV). 
            The man, who argued with God about his vocabulary and oration skills, subsequently authored five books and one Psalm. Moses penned 125,139 words, the largest volume of words recorded in the Bible. Thus reminding us that God equips those He calls. 
            While driving the kids to school, I asked “Who do you think wrote the majority of the Bible?” They responded with David, Paul, and Luke.  I shared with the kids how cool it was that God used Moses in this way. This was a guy who claimed to not be good with words, yet God provided what Moses needed to get the task done. In the Christian vocabulary, we call that being equipped. God not only equipped Moses, but He proved to be faithful. Soon after I shared this with the children, this verse was read over the airways of the Spirit FM radio station:
“The one who calls you is faithful, and He will do it.”
(1 Thessalonians 5:24, NIV).
            The dynamic truth of God equipping the called goes beyond the Old Testament. This truth is for all believers here and now. What is God calling you to do? Have you felt God nudging toward something new? What is the one thing God has laid upon your heart to do, that you haven’t done yet? Are you like Moses, arguing with God?
Whatever God has called you to do, He is faithful, and He will do it!
P.S. In case you are curious who else wrote the majority of the Bible the authors listed as follows:
Moses: 5 books, 1 Psalm; 125,139 words
Ezra: 3 books; 43,618 words
Luke: 2 books; 37,932 words
Jeremiah: 2 books; 35,306 words
Paul: 13 books; 32,408 words
The word count is based on the original languages.
* This information was researched and documented by Jeffery and Laura Kranz at
“We have this hope and an anchor for our soul, firm and secure.” (Hebrews 6:19, NIV)

You Can’t Out Give God!

Andrew gave all that he had.
The Wade Family Christmas is a large affair, with a gathering of over one hundred, our clan mostly dressed in Wranglers and boots, gather at a local reception hall. Each year, our extended family chooses a family in need. Often we donate food and firewood, and money. This year my parents, and the kids and I packed up our firewood to give to a family member going through a difficult time. After dinner, the monarch of the family announced another collection would be used to purchase new dentures recently lost at the nursing home.
            A few days later, I discover money and a note on the kitchen counter. I counted the money and read the note from Andrew: “New teeth.” I called Andrew into the kitchen to explain. He said, “Well, it’s not a lot, but it’s all the money I have, except for Wal-Mart gift cards. You can’t buy new teeth with a Wal-Mart gift card can you? We know two people who need new teeth and I want them to have my money. I have teeth. Everyone needs teeth, mom.” I cried. I lifted my head to the heavens and thanked the Good Lord above for this boy!
            We spent Christmas Eve with my parents, my sister and her children. After the presents were opened, my mom announced she had one more gift to give. She handed Andrew a crisp twenty-dollar bill and said, “Andrew, I heard about you giving all your money away to help buy new teeth for Wilton. This is for you!”  Andrew’s eyes lit up with excitement, and then he spoke, “But Grandma, this is too much. I only gave away $18 not $20.” She smiled at her only grandson and said, “No, you keep it!” From across the living room cluttered with wrapping paper, I asked “Andrew, what is it I always say about giving?” With a huge grin, he erupted, “YOU CAN’T OUT GIVE GOD!” It’s true; we can never out give God! In fact, the Bible says to test God on this subject.
Test me in this,” says the Lord Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.”
(Malachi 3:10 NIV)
            I received many treasured gifts this Christmas. However, the most treasured gift was watching Andrew walk in obedience to the Holy Spirit’s nudge to give; then watching his face light up when he received back more than he gave. That’s how God works. You can’t out give God!


God’s Faithfulness


God has recently reminded me of this important truth: God IS faithful. Grammatically speaking this is a present active participle meaning He continues to be faithful!

God reminded me of this truth this week while spending some long over due time with a friend. I have known my friend for 6 years and in that time I have seen God allow things (marriage, financial security, homes, jobs and recently heath) to be removed from her grasp. When I saw her this week I said to her (waving my hand over her head and looking heavenward) “Lord, this one’s had enough! Okay enough!” Then she replies “Oh, I wouldn’t trade my situation in for anything, because I get to see the Faithfulness of God everyday! April, our God is so faithful!”

My friend’s words echoed in my heart for days. I made arrangements to spend more face time with her this week. I had to tell her what God taught me in hearing her say “God is faithful!” Honestly, hearing her say that (with all that she has been through) was both a blessing and a conviction.

All year I have been purposefully denying spending money on myself for unnecessary items. I have been challenged over the past 9 months to really discern what is absolutely necessary. Thankfully, God and I agree that spending money on coffee is necessary! All joking aside, I have been in awe by the ways Jehoviah Jireh (The Lord Who Provides- Genesis 22:14) has provided and blessed me though this process.

As my friend shared the details of God’s faithfulness in her life, I began to feel convicted. I am purposefully choosing to deny myself but, sitting across from me is my friend who has not chosen for any of this to occur to her and yet she’s still thankful! Not only is she thankful, she wouldn’t change a thing!

This morning I awoke with song lyrics in my mind based on Psalms 89:1 “I will sing of the mercies’ of the Lord forever, I will sing, yes I will sing….and with my mouth will I make know God’s faithfulness, God’s faithfulness. With my mouth will I made make know God’s faithfulness to all generations!”

Here’s the lesson God taught me this week. Each one of us have different circumstances, different trials, and different obstacles. Some of these are self-induced while other circumstances God has allowed to happen. Regardless of the circumstance and regardless of the cause, God IS faithful! This statement is a present active participle, He was faithful, He is faithful and He will continue to be faithful!

I conclude each post with Romans 1:12. This week God has truly taught me what it means to be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith! Below is a list of some of my favorite verses about God’s faithfulness. Be encouraged!


“May you and I be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.” –Romans 1:12

God’s Faithfulness Verses

For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. Psalm 33:4
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies. Psalm 36:5
But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger,
abounding in love and faithfulness. Psalm 86:15
I will sing of the LORD’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. Psalm 89:1

O LORD God Almighty, who is like you? You are mighty, O LORD, and your faithfulness surrounds you. Psalm 89:8

Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. Psalm 91:3-6

It is good to praise the LORD and make music to your name, O Most High, to proclaim your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night, to the music of the ten-stringed lyre and the melody of the harp. Psalm 92:1-3

For great is your love, higher than the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Psalm 108:4

O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief. Psalm 143:1
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23

What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God’s faithfulness? Not at all! Romans 3:3-4
God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.
1 Corinthians 1:9
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Corinthians 10:13
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

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